Hello and thank you for visiting my page.  

My daughter, Madelynn, passed away on May 12th, 2009. She was caught up in her cord and passed away the day before my scheduled c-section.  She was 8lbs 2 ozs and was 20 inches long.  My boys have learned so much from their sister.  They have learned to help others, and to make a positive out of a negative.  

I have joined the TEARS foundation in January of 2010.  The TEARS foundation, saved my life.  I am honored to be a part of helping others through their grief.  

"Hey kids, guess what?"  " WE were chosen to have an angel, isn't that special?" This was the first thing I said to my boys, Sam and Adam, after they saw me in the hospital.  The journey of healing is a unpredictable road, but with older children, you tend to grieve for not only yourself, and husband, but for your other children as well.  They played legos in her nursary, and told me they were playing with their baby sister.   There is not a day that goes by that they dont involve her.  When we see a butterfly they say that she is coming to see them play.

 One day I was buying a couple of outfits for a friend of mine who has a baby girl, the lady behind me said," oh someone is having a baby sister!!!"  My youngest Adam said, "we already have one, silly, she is in heaven!!!"

 I am currently pregnant with my rainbow baby.  My kids ask everyday if this baby will go to heaven.  They ask questions like, " mommy, will this baby be living?' or " can we actually take our baby home?" or "will our brother or sister be blue like maddy?"  It saddens me that this is their new normal.  At a young age, they have already found out you are never too young to die.  I hope and pray that this February, my beautiful boys and my sweet angel Maddy, will welcome home their new baby brother or sister.  

This is our new normal.

Many thanks for your support -- and don't forget to forward this to anyone who you think might want to donate too!  My sons thank you too =)  beautiful angel hugs and kisses to all.